TOO MANY TO TELL

Hi... (hi kat hantu ka?). I mean tak sure ada reader tak utk my blog.:p
It has been so loonnggg, tooo longgg since the last time I blog..hehe. pemalaih! tak konsisten langsung!
Ntah mimpi apa harini nak memblog. Bukan ada hot topic pun. but it is almost end of the year.In fact, muslim year just began. So my post it is either the opening or closure of the year. Tapi nak tulis apa nih?

Haaaaa, there's a few changing on my daily routine which:

• I cook more often now, mostly masakan melayu kampung. dah kata nak pektis masak. have to la. awat bukan western? mak tak beli oven lg. tak akan beli kot until masuk rumah nnti. orrr ada sesapa nk bg? hehe.lgpun sian lat umair dok makan outside punya food, tp tu ahh. bila dok spend time masak slalu tak puas main dgn dia esp on working days.

• I have stopped pumping breastmilk, today is my 2nd day. tak sangka boleh jd loya kalau tak pump after long hours. umair dah takmau langsung thru botol, freezer punya partition pun dah ketat, kalau penuh how to store other frozen food like ikan ayam semua. kata nak masak. :p

• actively whatsapping my GFs every single minute, ygni mak suka. sebab x kering jari dibuatnya. sronok kalau keep in touch dengan GFs mcm ni. we miss nothing about each other. ko sakit perot aku tau,hang naik bisul pun aku tau. bahahaha. depa ni kawan masa skolah menengah. so it was like 15  years  and we still keep in touch in fact lagi close kan?? betoi ka 15yrs? ntah..*malaskira*

• I still work at the same company, but with different team this time. I am now focussing on the database portion and my job role is most likely like DBA. bolehla..

Semua yang kat atas, nothing much that I did something good in my life. Itulah, hati ni macam rasa tak cukup terbaik. Rasa tak secure dengan diri sendiri. What you did good to others Nabihan??? My self motivation is turning low these days. I'm still searching, what I can change for a better me. better mommy to umair, better wife to my husband, better daughter to my parents/in law, better sister to my sistas, better employee to my company ($$$)..better me for everyone... :) and of course a better khalifah to Allah s.w.t

pepatah Melayu mengatakan..semoga esok lebih baik dari hari ini. Amin

argghh boringnya post ni! haha. rasa mcm pelik dok crita psl diri sendiri. so selfff centred..len kali nak post psl umair lah.  len kali tu harap2 not after a few years :p *janji!* ok, see you really soon!